Bonus Short (Recorded in 2018): Is it Realistic to Think You Can Have Whatever You Want?

"Oh that’s too much. I can’t have that. That’s not realistic."

Back in 2018 (before I met my now husband Robert, I had a random thought of this extravagant wedding in Ireland. It surprised me because I never really thought about marriage of weddings... but this idea of "too much" really stood out to me. So I dove in to figure out why my brain instantly responded with "that's too much."

I instantly heard myself say, "oh that's too much."

Wait what? Too much for who? Too much for what? 

I instantly grabbed my journal to dig into this thought.

What you decide is too much or not enough hovers right around what you think you deserve. And it is currently what you are experiencing in life. 

Too much is exactly the same as not enough.

There is no definition. Its completely objective. There is no hard line of existence. We (humans) kind of draw our own line of what we deem as "too much" or "not enough."  Telling ourselves, this is what I'm allowed to have. This amount is appropriate or this amount is not.